Caught a local film at a heartland mall today - think its called Where are you Ghost or somesort. Was quite apprehensive about the show at first after hearing critical newspapers' reviews on it but I was delightfully surprised (as usual). This show is so true to its Chinese title (Xia Dao Ni Xiao). Direct translation to English - scare you till you laugh. Haha. I was spooked, tickled, touched, on top of many other emotions, throughout the whole show. Seems like another one of Jack Neo's feat again.
The third story in the movie got me thinking of my Mom. Yes, I almost always relate what I see/hear to what's happenning around me. Our relationship has been kinda strained lately. It feels like we're drifting apart as I've not been spending much time with her due to work and everything else. Actually, I know work is just an excuse. If i can find the time to hang out with my friends, why not my own Mommy?
Perhaps, I am ashamed to face her. Now 22 years old and no longer the wholesome innocent daughter she painstakingly gave birth to and brought up. Cause deep down, I know I'm not fulfilling my rightful duties of a daughter or the eldest child. Cause of a long long list of things I regret ever doing or not doing.
Thus, I'm making a mental note to myself.
To start being more sensitive to the needs of my loved ones. To put in more effort to make their day(s). To let them know how much I truly love them.
And I'll stop trying to please people who probably do not care tuppence about me. Nor am I gonna make any compromises against my better judgment and conscience, for the momentary volatile droplet of satisfaction which usually leaves me feeling emptier and less worthy after the droplet dissipates.
So I hereby apologise to those whom I shouldn't but neglected. And those whom I've been trying to please behind a facade of indifference but am going to stop trying.
For the sake of me, myself and I this time. I am taking this turn.
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