Saturday, December 19, 2009
Rach's Fairytale
A cool breezy Saturday night, in a cosy cafe camouflaged among red-bricked buildings. Waiters dressed in red vests and black pants welcomed guests docked in light colors at the entrance. SLRs and digicams snapped away while a mixture of leisure chatter and laughter filled the air. Jugs of fruit punch poured into glasses and refilled. A sumptous spread of chinese asian cuisine satiated the hungry guests who had gathered to celebrate Rach's coming of age. Her 21st.
Happy Birthday my dear girl!
Let pictures do the talk from here.
The O.S. !
Group pictures:
Before the cake-cutting ceremony
What goes on in the washrooms while the gentlemen waits...
And individual shots with my girls
Friday, December 18, 2009
Already Gone
Credits to Matt.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Replaying
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad
I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad
So much disappointment and revelations - that was just the last straw - it feels like I'm finally waking up from a 14-day nightmare.
"When you've been to the bottom, nothing else hurts any further."
Thank you (you al' know who you are!) for being here with me through these doldrums. With your lovely accompaniment, listening ears and encouragements, I'm picking myself up. Will be getting out of Singapore this Christmas, desperately need a breather and break from this concrete jungle city and most of all, the complicated human minds!
Now I just need to find my passport...
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Forgotten What It's like to Smile
Have not felt truly happy for sometime. I have been so immersed in playing sherlock holmes that I forgot what its like to think simply.
Emo stuff aside, I came across another one of Michelle Phan (aka ricebunny)'s tutorial - Easy Autumn and was so inspired I attempted to re-create the look on myself.
Here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=69w6io4j_gM
And this is my own version. Colors have been adjusted here. I love this picture cause its so melancholic. But some been telling me that I look frail and sunken here. =(
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Credits to Chester Tan.
Last night was the most horrible night I've ever had for as long as I can remember. Was already mentally exhausted but I kept waking up in between intervals of light dozes, hoping to see a message alert on my display screen. But I was disappointed.
When I decided that no message was gonna come and managed to fall asleep, I found myself drifting in and out of different dreams, which were all related to what I was worrying about, just maybe different characters. I remember waking up and heaving a sigh of relief that it was just a dream, only to realise that it's much worse in reality. I wanted to escape and return to my slumber, yet I could not sleep.
So tired now.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Things have changed so much over the past 3 weeks, I don't know what to fathom of it or what I should expect. I can be feeling ecstatic, troubled, happy, worried, scared, sad and disappointed at the same time, almost everyday. So many emotions but I am only human. Please have mercy on me and show me the light.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
And speaking of birthday suits, I can't decide which waxing parlour to go to - the highly commercialised hollywood-ish HoneyPot, hard-selling uni-sex Strip or the home-based but highy-raved Golddust? I don't care about price, as long as they are professional and hygenic! Do share with me your comparisions if you've been to the above.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Here's proof that I've been eating people. Don't worry. Not anaeroxic, bulimic or anything. Quick lunch after classes at the newly opened Xin Wang Taiwan Cafe at my place. Bubble Milk Tea is nice. But main courses and side dishes didn't quite make the mark. =((
Tea with Brother at White Dog's after class.
One good thing about not working - finally getting to spend time with my family. The downside? No more wild shopping sprees.
Alright, back to my Gossip Girl. xoxo.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
M. I. A.
IF you haven't been seeing me "online" for much longer than usual, and I don't return your calls/text messages, please get the (not-so) subtle hint and step on the reverse peddle. I am most likely already physically and mentally drained, by you and need a break.
From you.
T.T.Y.N.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Come to think of it, tts been a great learning experience working at BCA. I've come to understand how government stagboards work and know more about the construction industry in Singapore. People have this perception that contractors must be a rough, un-ruly unreasonable bunch. But they aren't, at least not the majority of them. In fact, most I've met and interacted with are quite amiable, polite, nice and understanding. Even when they do not get what they want in the end. Some of them are very appreciative and it feels good when they thank you profusely over the phone or even drop you an e-mail to express their gratitude. It was these little things that kept us going on each day.
Not forgetting the generous bosses, who brought us to lunch and dinner treats. I can't even count the number of times we've received treats from them. So thank you bosses, if you're reading this!
Alright, its noon. Tummy's rumbling but I can't eat what I want. Great.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
That’s not love. That’s attraction. And it’s important to realize the difference between an attraction and distraction. We say “I love you” but sometimes it means “I love you when you look good and dress nice and don’t make mistakes.”
- Leighton
Thank you for highlighting the difference between blatant attraction and love. I think people feel empty when they aren't loved. And in desperation, they go for makeovers, workouts, manicures, plastic surgeries, wanting to be loved, but they don’t realize that what they would get after that is not love, its just attraction, its just lust. Its “I love you because you look good, dress nice and don’t make mistakes”. Never love. Yet what they actually wanted was just love, being loved when they wake up groggy-eyed with bad morning breath, dress in dowdy old shirt and pants and make a few stumbles in life.
Considered yourself blessed and lucky if you know you are being loved, always, no mater what.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Shayna's 21st & Villa Bali
Realised that my recent entries have been pretty 'wordy' with a serious lack of pictures so I shall let pictures do the work for this one, its 2plus am in the morning and I'm dead tired.
Last weekend was Shayna's 21st birthday bash! As I was busy clocking OT for work and couldn't help to choose the present, I make the birthday card. Haven't done any art and craft for goodness how long and my skills were rusty. Only managed to complete the card in the end after 6 hours of non-stop trial and error.
Rest of the guys penning down their birthday wishes on my ahhem 'masterpiece'.
And what other better way to spend our time while waiting for the card to be ready beside cam-whoring..? Haha!
Shayna, the birthday girl looking drop-dead gorgeous on her big day. Having only slept an hour for the past 40hours,I looked like crap in contrast.
We loved the backdrop that Shayna and Calverk artistically decorated.
Oh, Guess what?! Chongtat brought along his new polaroid camera and it rawks! My first time taking such photos and they are so cute! Credits to Liming for the photos!
More pictures from the night. Ripped them from Liming's FB cause no surprise, my camera screwed up again. Its definitely time for a new cammie!!
It was a great night with the s24 gang as always. Always nice catching up on each other's school lives and discussing future career prospects with the guys. Looking forward to our October babies' 21st parties!
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Met the girls for dinner at Villa Bali on Wednesday and had a good time. Shared the chef's platter with beer. Not a fan of beer myself and couldn't finish even 1 glass, but well, it was 1-for-1 promo! Haha.
Missing Chunrui and Beverly's pictures. Would have to wait for the rest to upload before I can get theirs. Heh, I've been 'stealing' photos from FB.
Kaiwan's looking uber-adorable in her new braces, makes me so wanna get mine done asap too!
That's all for now. Its 3am. Waking up at 6 later. Gawd.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Busy like a Bee
It is a quiet day at work today. Everyone seems to be tied up at their desks, trying to clear a weekend’s load of work I’m missing my buddy who so happens to be my colleague and shares the desk with me. Guess we won’t be seeing much of each other with the start of our new school semester and other personal obligations to fulfill. I predict a short one this week.
Lessons officially start tomorrow and I would be tied down by tutorials and revisions, on top of my 5-day job at MND. Meanwhile, coming weekday nights would be occupied catching up with old friends and discussions for collaborations. Things seem to be picking up for me, finally, especially in October and November. Would be going back to my first and foremost passion (guess which!) and possibly a job in the industry related to my pursuing degree. Shan't say too much here lest I change my mind. ;)
So people, do pardon me if I may seem out of reach meanwhile.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Of Geeks in Rompers
Do pardon me and allow some narcisism. For I'm crazy over rompers and oversized glasses. Last weekend has been a great one, albeit a tad damaging on my figure (and his pockets!). Was eating non-stop, and I really mean it, tummy's disgustingly bulging now and I would have to abstain from wearing body-hugging clothes. That means no bodycon dresses. =( And I just bought a couple of new ones. Superficial stuff aside, its gonna be a looong weekend! Looking forward to it with a 21st birthday bash to attend and planning a night's rendezvous with my love.
But before happy times, September 18th is gonna mark an epoch in 22 years of my life. And hopefully, I'll have the courage to see it through and get what's got to be done, completed, even though I awfully dread it.
And oh yea! The Kushinbo buffet got us planning on a trip to Hokkaido. Gonna do more research on Japan and travel deals. Konichiwa, Japan!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Tumblr Addiction
Sunday, September 6, 2009
The Eight-Hour Apart
But why does the chill feel especially so? Probably because the warmth from your embrace is long gone.
Since 8 hours ago.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
L O V E
And I would love, to love. =)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
The Simple Life
We fill our simple lives with wrath, greed, envy, lust, pride and many other contaminants. Don't tell me it is human's nature to err. Who said so? Who made it such? We humans or another higher-being up-there? We manipulate and deceive to get what we want, or rather, what we think we want, which more often than not, can be quite alot. Who cares who might get hurt in the process as long as we get what we want. Noone. Sincerity and honesty are long-forsaken. We have forgotten that what we can achieve with these can be so much more rewarding. Perhaps most of us are scared. Schemes cunningly devised and traps laid. Lies buried by more lies. We continue to plough on in this never-ending vicious cycle we trap ourselves in.
But things are actually quite quite simple. Just us, who aren't. So let's start living our lives simple, just be sincere, and honest. Wouldn't it be nice, you think?
Sunday, August 30, 2009
The Sweetest Thing
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Why, What, Where, Who, When ?
These three words are probably being uttered, everyday, every hour, every minute, everywhere by everyone to anyone. But when as you're saying it, have you wondered what you are missing? Someone's companionship? His voice or her laughter? His smell or her eyes? His hugs or her kisses? How the person makes you feel? Or simply, how much you like to be around her?
These three words can be so ambiguous. And ambiguity is a jittery state which only constant validation and clarification can relieve.
When I miss you, it is not because I am lonely. I merely wish to spend a twilight with you.
When I miss you, please know that it is your presence that I miss, not your companionship.
When I miss you, I am thinking about about how your eyes crinkle up when you laugh.
When I miss you, it is not because I need to feel loved and special. I just want to make you feel so.
When I miss you, its your embrace that I want to be in, and not blatant attention that I yearn for.
And it is as simple as that.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Monday 'Blues' & Macs!!
Today marks the best Monday I've had in months. Why, you might ask. The weather was great (No rain!). I wasn't late for work (well, earlier than usual!). Skin wasn't SO bad. The contractors were all very nice. My boss was in a good mood, I managed to clear a handful of cases. Lunch cost only $2.50. Repaired the soles of my mary-janes. My boobs felt bigger than usual. (Hooray!) Got many text messages from my love. People smiled at me. (I smiled at them back)
Basically, everything about today was just great!
To round off this awesome day, I feasted on an Oreo McFlurry's. No pictures cause I was slurping it like a glutton as I strolled home. Plus a Coke and Large Fries. Who cares about fat and diet and cholesterol. Not me!!
But only for this special Monday...
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Found
And then, I was woken by a familiar waft of scent. Breathing more calmly, I snuggled closer to its source as his arms closed in around me.
Time to stop dreaming. Why the chimerical pursuit when I already had my answers.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Beams of Sunshine
Caught a local film at a heartland mall today - think its called Where are you Ghost or somesort. Was quite apprehensive about the show at first after hearing critical newspapers' reviews on it but I was delightfully surprised (as usual). This show is so true to its Chinese title (Xia Dao Ni Xiao). Direct translation to English - scare you till you laugh. Haha. I was spooked, tickled, touched, on top of many other emotions, throughout the whole show. Seems like another one of Jack Neo's feat again.
The third story in the movie got me thinking of my Mom. Yes, I almost always relate what I see/hear to what's happenning around me. Our relationship has been kinda strained lately. It feels like we're drifting apart as I've not been spending much time with her due to work and everything else. Actually, I know work is just an excuse. If i can find the time to hang out with my friends, why not my own Mommy?
Perhaps, I am ashamed to face her. Now 22 years old and no longer the wholesome innocent daughter she painstakingly gave birth to and brought up. Cause deep down, I know I'm not fulfilling my rightful duties of a daughter or the eldest child. Cause of a long long list of things I regret ever doing or not doing.
Thus, I'm making a mental note to myself.
To start being more sensitive to the needs of my loved ones. To put in more effort to make their day(s). To let them know how much I truly love them.
And I'll stop trying to please people who probably do not care tuppence about me. Nor am I gonna make any compromises against my better judgment and conscience, for the momentary volatile droplet of satisfaction which usually leaves me feeling emptier and less worthy after the droplet dissipates.
So I hereby apologise to those whom I shouldn't but neglected. And those whom I've been trying to please behind a facade of indifference but am going to stop trying.
For the sake of me, myself and I this time. I am taking this turn.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
'Goodbye' Seems to be the Hardest Word
BACK again! Cause I've so much stuff that I wanna shout about. Just had a date with my dearest boy at ION where we confided in each other our heart-felt thoughts. How cool is that. ;P
And I'm so happpppieee, cause we had a rockin' good time! Haven't had a date like this for I can't remember how long. Miss the StarHub days when I was loaded, alright relatively richer, and we would head to our favourite hang-out places and chill (and shop!) like there's no tomorrow.
Dinner was at all-time favourite restaurant (my treat of course!) but we couldn't finish the food we ordered. Surprisingly. Got him a Zara printed Tee cause he seemed to really like it. Gosh, only 16 year old and his wardrobe is filled with Topman, GAP and Zara apparels. And I was going to thrift stores and BV to get my clothes when I was that age. Life's that unfair hur.
My dear badminton captain. Who is about 10 cm taller than me... boohoo. Can't bully him anymore!
And oh, guess how much I've spent in a short span of 48hours...?! 500 SGD! Gawd, I'm seriously sick. A mental illness called Compulsive-Spending-Whenyouhavemoney syndrome. And I still have a long list of essentials to stock up on, its crazy! Money's never enough!
Tuesday night was awfully sinful!
The gang decided to try the dessert buffet at Orchard's Swensons and it was really.... sickenning. So much so that I made them share the US Fries and Fried Mushrooms with me cause all the sweet food were driving my tastebuds craving for some sodium.
We always get damn professional waiter-photographers! X-D
What's a gathering without a little drama...
Ripped these photos off Beverly's FB! I'm too lazy to upload my own.
Anyway...
I'm so gonna make another trip to town again. For the tiered mini-dress, harem pants, boyfriend blazer, denim jumpsuit and skinfood supplements. Someone stop me please!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
“So do your heart a favor, sweetie. Just turn around and leave. It may not be what you think you want, but it’s what you need”
- Leighton Fitzpatrick
Bitter-sweet. Got me thinking...
Properly.
Something which I haven't done for the longest time.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Just had a good chat with a friendly Techinical Officer from next cubicle.
Shared her children's experiences on orthodontic braces.
I am determined, again, to fix my first appointment.
Hearing people talk about their experiences always prompt me, but I lack perserverance to see them through. Not good.
Should put pictures of Alba with her mega-watt smile all around me so I get reminded of what I should be doing daily.
Being human sucks.
Being born with estrogens and ovaries makes it worse.
You can't afford to be lazy and timid if you want to look good. I am both, unfortunately.
But i'm trying my best. To follow my daily regime. This week's flopped cause Im reaching home after midnight almost everyday and could'nt be bothered to go beyond the Kanaebo toner.
Today's the first day of Vichy. So far so good. No miracles yet but I think my T-zone is slightly mattier. Wanna justify the 50bucks spent on a tiny bottle.
Gotta head back to work. 300 files waiting for me and I'm not even halfway through them. Gonna be loaded with more work after July when the rest leave. I predict myself clocking OT everyday. Goodbye people.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Have been trying to pack my own lunchbox to work (credits to Huiyu!) if I can afford the time to prepare the ingredients and its really quite fun! I personally feel that having home-cooked food at work is a luxury! Haha..
Today's Lunchbox:
Oven-toasted chicken thigh meat marinated in tomato paste, lemon and sesame oil with boiled potato, carrots and an egg. Wanted to melt the cheese on the chicken thigh meat but didn't turn out the way I wanted.. =X Grapes for tea-break!
Tuesday's lunchbox was a very easy-to-make, nutritious, healthy and delicious porridge.
Ikan bilis were boiled in water for the broth. Ingredients used were dried oysters, dried scallops, taukwa, carrot and minced meat.
Monday's lunchbox:
Pasta in tomato sauce with ham, button mushrooms and minced meat. Very yummy..!
Its amazing how some people manage to pack their own lunchboxes to work daily without fail. Lots of perseverance, self-discipline and creativity are required for such a seemingly-easy-but-damn-hard task! I'm already running out of ideas for what to pack tomorrow..!
Do share with me if you have any fuss-free and tasty lunchboxes ya? Preferably non-deep fried food! =P
Have been trying to pack my own lunchbox to work (credits to Huiyu!) if I can afford the time to prepare the ingredients and its really quite fun! I personally feel that having home-cooked food at work is a luxury! Haha..
Sunday, June 14, 2009
And not forgetting, special thanks to Chong Tat for being the gentleman of the night and driving us to and fro. =D
Sneaking into my brother's room to upload ONE picture from yesterday's party:
Had a mini catch-up teh tarik session with s23 gang at Rail Mall after the party followed by Mahjong at QX's cousins' place. I manage to win a few rounds despite being the newest player there. ;)
Just left his place after helping to doll up his mommy for a wedding dinner. She already has a nice facial structure to start with, so it was an easy task even though I had limited resources. Just a makeup base from Loreal's, Chanel's Matt Lumiere and Kanaebo's eyeshadow and lippie palette did the trick of transforming her. I can't wait to hear from QX his relatives' comments when they see her!
P.S.: Tomorrow's my first day of work after a very long hiatus. My nerves are wrecked. Wish me luck!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
An 'Old' Lady Now
Time flies once you're past adolescence. It seems only yesterday when I was celebrating my 18th birthday. Today, I'm already FOUR years older. Freaking FOUR years. You do the math and see how old I am now.
Birthdays are not much of a novelty now, having spent the last 5 or 6 years planning and getting surprised. The creative juices have already been used up. Nevertheless, 22nd was a great one, thanks to my darling Qx, loved ones & besties.
Thank you guys!
So Mr Ng brought me to one of my favourite restaurants, Thai Village. We had dined here once during our 1st Valentine and couldn't forget our mind-blowing gastronomic experience. Being the ever-doting boyfriend and knowing I love seafood, he worked and saved hard just to give me this awesome dinner.
We went to the branch which was conveniently located at Taman Jurong.
Our drinks; Coconut Juice & Soursop. There was china tea as well.
Him already munching on something - the appetisers. The a-zhar is one of the best we ever had.
Cam-whoring while waiting for the food to arrive.
And here comes the main dishes!
Braised Superior Shark's Fin with Crab Meat in Medium size
Everyone orders this when they dine here. Huge chunks of tangy Shark's Fin in boiling thick gravy with generous amounts of freshly plucked crabmeat. It comes with bean sprouts and veggies.
Baked Crab with Vermicelli
This is their signature dish. The vermicelli tastes fragrantly sweet after absorbing the crab's juices. After having tried this, we still prefer their Baked King Prawns with Vermicelli though.
He loves it!
Us very happy!
The desserts:
Original Chinese Herbal Jelly for me.
Ordered this not because I'm a fan of herbal jelly but because its known to be good for the skin.
He had Sea coconut with Longan.
I felt a tinge of guilt when the bill came, it was a hefty $170! Besides that, he further indulged me with 3 lovely dresses from BonitoChico. one of which I wore for the dinner. Hiakhiak.
After the sumptious dinner, we headed to one of our secret hangouts to chill and relax. It was a lovely lovely weekend with him by my side 24/7. =)
Love you to pieces dear!
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Dinner with the O.S.! >3
Our food - loving their roasted spring chicken and cream pasta!
Yinsing - the ever bubbly girl who never fails to charm with her infectious smile.
Liming - the ever-funky babe with awesome new highlights! Love her hair!
Last but not least, our dearest nurse-in-the-making, Rachel who always make our day with her cute actions and words.
Always loads of fun with them around!
Thank you for your thoughtful and sweet presents, especially the falsies! Haha.